This is My Bliss

I just spent 4 of the most incredible days of my life with my boyfriend. I honestly believe we fell in love with each other all over again. Four days of making love, holding one another, professing our love, having intimate and meaningful discussions, laughing together, enjoying delicious meals together, etc. Our own personal Cockaigne, a land of delightful pleasures devoid of pain. I feel so at ease right now. My fears of losing him and doubts about his feelings for me have been absolutely assuaged. He showed me his love for me. He held me, his hand on my face and told me how much he loves me and how happy he is to be with me. Every time he tells me he loves me, my heart palpitates. Every time he touches me, I melt. Blood rushes to my genitals. He makes me wet and hungry. And then he satisfies my every need. Not just how he makes me cum over and over again. He holds me post coitus. He kisses me softly and he makes me feel safer than I ever have in my life.

I have never felt so loved before... and by someone so beautiful, inside and out. I trust him completely. He would never hurt me, emotionally or physically. I can't believe someone so wonderful, smart, handsome, and sweet has chosen me. But maybe I should b/c I have made great strides. He is proud of my progress. That means so much to me. I'm proud of him too. I'm honestly in disbelief. I have wanted him for so long. I pined. I cried. I prayed. I never gave up hope. It's hard to believe he is actually mine again and that he truly is happy to be mine and happy to call me his.

I am so in love. I hope everyone in the world can feel this way, can find the person that makes their life complete. The world sure as hell would be a much more peaceful planet.

My life is so good right now it's surreal. My hard work has been rewarded with a raise and I'll soon receive a generous bonus. I'm thankful for my 4 jobs and that I have an opportunity to work hard and save money to move to California. I'm so grateful for my family and my close friends. My dog is a loyal and loving companion that brightens all my days.

Less than a month til I have another 4 days of bliss with my lover in LA. He has no idea how good this thing is going to be and it will just get better and better. I'm going to love him so hard and show him so much kindness. This is forever. I'm going to marry this man. I'm going to having his beautiful children. All my life I've dreamt of finding a loving man that I adore and starting a family and being a mother. I believe he is going to make all my dreams come true. And I'll do my best to do the same for him. He honestly inspires me to be my best self. That's what he deserves. He helped me on to a better path a year ago... a path of self discovery, healing, and of reestablishing a loving relationship with myself.

Billy, you are my world. Thank you for being you. Thank you for being in my life. Thank you for loving me. It is the best gift I've ever received... besides the gift of life I got from my parents. I love you. 💗💖💕💘