busy AF

I was driving to my evening job and the sky was a dark blue resembling the ocean. I can't wait to plunge in to it next week... in the form of a plane to Los Angeles. Aside from that long weekend in LA if you're wondering what I am doing any point in time for the next few months the answer is: working or sleeping. There will not be much in between. The goals have been set and I'm determined to meet them. There are much bigger things that I want than just relocating to Los Angeles. I long to use my degree and have a career where I am making a decent living while protecting or improving environmental conditions. All I can really do now is stay positive and keep working hard at what I am doing right now.

Camp Flog Gnaw is a little over a week away and we still don't have a schedule! How frustrating. I just wanna know when Lana is playing so I can plan that weekend accordingly. I have been bringing my lunch to work every day and cooking dinner a) to save money and b) to lose weight. At 128 lbs I look good, but not great. I want to be super in shape, but my evening job will solve that quickly. Walking up and down stairs. My weekend jobs as brand ambassador (for an awesome charitable dog food and for different types of liquor) pay really well.

My scrimping and saving will be rewarded on my mini-vacay though! I plan to eat a lot of awesome food while I am there... hopefully accompanied by Billy. I should be spending most of the weekend w/ him, but at this point I have learned to expect the worst from him. He may go AWOL as soon as I get to LA and ghost me yet again. I really hope that doesn't happen, but if it does I will know it's definitely time to let him go and open myself up to the idea of being w/ another man. I'm hopeful, but realistic.

To be honest, yes I am very excited to see him for longer than 2 hours. For the first time in almost exactly a year. We can get high, have sex for hours, go have an awesome dinner somewhere, eat donuts in bed, wake up and go eat brunch, hold hands, make out, etc..... Yeah I really hope all that and more awaits.

I miss my LA besties a lot. I'm pretty damn lonely in Austin aside from a couple cool friends.